Rorschach projections onto the world around me
wet ass floor in my van
how to read your life like it’s a dream
i have a wet floor in my van right now. long story short but basically somehow water got in and it started to smell bad so i had to pay someone to clean it properly and now the floor is wet and i’m trying to dry it out with a fan. it’s taking days because we live in the PNW where everything is wet most of the time (even though global warming is starting to change that). anyways, i realized this is how my mind works. it takes days, weeks, months even years sometimes to let go of some things. things just sit there and fester and i wait and wait for them to go and they never do and so i go about my business but memories just keep sitting there and eventually i realize the only way to get them out is to invite them to tell their own story. kind of like an earworm of a song. you just have to let the whole song be played out and then it goes away. so here is a story that won’t go away. i have always thought that in order to be a ‘legitimate’ person you had ‘to be’ with someone. eventually, i figured out that you can love in all kinds of non-mainstream ways. i can love friends. i can love animals. i can love myself. i can love traveling and writing. i can love helping people. i can love nature. i can love weirdoes who go to comedy clubs to…
